1
I didn’t speak all these years
Because I felt like even
My voice took up too much space
My Body of sound
Withering away
on the softly moving wind
2
I prepare my tongue for speech
only
when that soft breeze carries away
those
Supermarket bags
And I become beautiful enough for you
To learn to love me.
3
My teeth seemed to have fused shut
We have our tea
So i can wash down that concrete glue
That chokes me
And I’m scaring myself
We sit across the table from each other
With you,
trying desperately to communicate
with me.
You go over your same routes
With Sometimes different words but
They all are possessed by that feeling
I’m lonely lonely lonely lonely
half-wits; that we both are
And when I open my mouth
To
tell you
Why i have been running all these years
They start to fill with tears
And suddenly I have Put my heart in a pail.
In order to live forever;
my warmth must be contained
Even as cold as i am
4
Your lips are drawn into frowns.
Mother, you always told me
That my father doesn’t love you
Because you don’t do what he wants you to
And you never saw what was wrong
With that
You never left or fought back
Stop telling me you love me
And reverse all those times
Where disappointment
Was no stranger in the room
5
It is only human to wish to hide
Cover up our beauty with our dark vice
Flora and Sin;
Fauna and Trust Issues
What a drag it is to think and divulge
Disassembling for easier travel
Consumption;
my fatal wasting disease
